a dream of intimacy

Oh dream in my head
how you mock my pain
you mock my lonliness
you leave me with sensations logic can't explain

I'm weary
can't you see?
you take my deepest longings
dredge them up
set them free

tired, weakened state
I'm forced to experience
all that I lack
the things I had once when it didn't make a diffrence

in dreams, a dancer, a beauty a lover
but then to awake
with sweat on my forehead
aware that I'm nothing, alone in my slumber

is it not enough to reach and not find?
to labor for things that will never be mine?

but no I awake again in my tears
with the whispers of love fresh in my ears
but the coldness, the draft wakes me to truth
I'm alone in my weakness, my life, my youth.