Thursday Morning

My Dad is coming today to visit with Lori (his wife of 2 years). This will be the first time I've seen them in over a year. Our last visit was my college graduation. They will meet Brendon too, I know my Dad is looking forward to that.

okay, I'll admit it, I'm nervous. I am always nervous when family comes to visit. For one, I am really busy and I feel anxious that the visitors expectations will not be met. I'm nervous that I do not measure up to my families expectations (though they have always been supporters...it's just an irrational fear), and I am nervous because my family is oh, so dramatic. Really, you have no idea. Or maybe you do. and in the past 2 years I have become increasingly dissillusioned with my family and memories of my childhood. so visiting feels like an immense burden, like a pulling in two directions... wanting everything to be good/fun/lighthearted/happy and knowing that I have grown increasingly bitter/hurt/ sad about family issues in my absence from them.

But regardless, a fun weekend is planned, and my Dad's sole reason for coming out is to see the shows I'm in. Nice right? He likes to be supportive plus he LOVES shows, lighthearted, musical shows. Loves them. Tonight after I finish at Knotts we are going to Downtown Disney for dinner and fireworks!! and tomorrow my Dad, Lori, Aunt C and Brendon are coming to the dinner theater. Saturday is my birthday and they will go to knotts all day....it'll be fun.

So that is my weekend...


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