Over and Out...

Well, I did it, put in my 2 weeks notice. It may seem small, but to me it's a big deal. I have never NEVER quit a performing job. I love performing and I know how saturated the business is. Since I moved out here, I have not been without a performing job of some sort for the last year and then some. I struggled to get the first one. AND, I am not a quitter or a sissy. I can take it! But I decided in this case, not too. I had this feeling that something great was waiting for me and I was putting it off out of fear, fear of giving up on the BD company. Fear of being without a performing job, fear of relaxing and having free time. I haven't had free time since middle school. Yesterday, I had free time. I got off work, went for an hour long jog/walk, which for me is GREAT, showered went to Brendon's and made dinner and watched "24". I am finally going to put my body into shape. I have a few areas I want to work on...1. Endurance, that's where the jogging/soon to be running comes along. 2. Tone. ah, tone, I want that Cali girl body. I'll probably never look like a lot of the girls running around here, especially the dancers but I want crazy good abs and defined arms. 3. Flexibility. I'm pretty flexible but I want to be able to say that long into my 60's and I can improve on my flexibility now!
Oh, and I will take dance classes. But I allowed myself to not yesterday. In fact I don't have to all week. Why, because right now it's rebound..."if I don't take a dance class, I'll fall behind, I won't be dancer, I'll be a loser"..and I am going to dance because I want to dance not because I have to prove myself...to myself. whew! all that thinking makes me tired!

and btw, Linkin Park really is the best to jog/walk and soon run to.