Shiny, Happy People
In the past couple days I have become very aware of how happy I am, I love my friends, my lifestyle, my boyfriend. I enjoy my day to day,I look forward to the future....
This is the first time I can remember feeling so peaceful and content. Ihave always been a happy person with fortunate circumstances that I pray I rarely take for granted. But this week I have thrououghly enjoyed the days I worked, danced, had nothing to do (I usually can't stand a day off or a day with no schedule).aaahhhh! and I was stressed this week too, but it's part of the whole package and I enjoy it.One of my favorite and most trying dance teachers stressed to us that the journey is the funpart not the end result...if you can't enjoy the journey, you won't enjoy the destination.and I have always believed that whole heartedly and it is true. and let me tell you, I am enjoying the journey!
I tell you I love my friends, temporary and long term (each show comes with different friends)I am fortunate to hang out and do fun things, memorable, meaningful things. This weekend Dana had a birthday bonfire on the beach,Bren and I started looking at Halloween Deco for a party we want to throw, yesterday my sister called and we got to mess around on the phone, Melanie, Ryan, Brendon and I bbq'd last night at our apartment...it was a blast! When I look back over the last year of my life I feel so lucky to have so many good memories. and I still feel fat, all the time really,but yesterday as Melanie and I were strolling between the guys at the bbq and the kitchenI realized I don't care as much as I used to. I'd love to be skinny and beautiful (as I feel I am not), trulyI would, but I know I'd rather look like I do now and have the life, friends, family that I have at present than trade that for a great figure. Obviously my friends still hang out with me, my boyfriend will still kiss me, my sister still tells me her life story and listens to mine...The importance of the ever elusive "thin"dream has died like I prayed it would but never believed it could. obviously life goes on when you don't have the body of a super-model and life goes on with meaning, purpose, love...even passion and desire. This may seem elementary but I never felt I could live life fully until I was thin and toned to perfection. Apparently, not so, if my life was any more full I'd keel over.
This is the first time I can remember feeling so peaceful and content. Ihave always been a happy person with fortunate circumstances that I pray I rarely take for granted. But this week I have thrououghly enjoyed the days I worked, danced, had nothing to do (I usually can't stand a day off or a day with no schedule).aaahhhh! and I was stressed this week too, but it's part of the whole package and I enjoy it.One of my favorite and most trying dance teachers stressed to us that the journey is the funpart not the end result...if you can't enjoy the journey, you won't enjoy the destination.and I have always believed that whole heartedly and it is true. and let me tell you, I am enjoying the journey!
I tell you I love my friends, temporary and long term (each show comes with different friends)I am fortunate to hang out and do fun things, memorable, meaningful things. This weekend Dana had a birthday bonfire on the beach,Bren and I started looking at Halloween Deco for a party we want to throw, yesterday my sister called and we got to mess around on the phone, Melanie, Ryan, Brendon and I bbq'd last night at our apartment...it was a blast! When I look back over the last year of my life I feel so lucky to have so many good memories. and I still feel fat, all the time really,but yesterday as Melanie and I were strolling between the guys at the bbq and the kitchenI realized I don't care as much as I used to. I'd love to be skinny and beautiful (as I feel I am not), trulyI would, but I know I'd rather look like I do now and have the life, friends, family that I have at present than trade that for a great figure. Obviously my friends still hang out with me, my boyfriend will still kiss me, my sister still tells me her life story and listens to mine...The importance of the ever elusive "thin"dream has died like I prayed it would but never believed it could. obviously life goes on when you don't have the body of a super-model and life goes on with meaning, purpose, love...even passion and desire. This may seem elementary but I never felt I could live life fully until I was thin and toned to perfection. Apparently, not so, if my life was any more full I'd keel over.
posted by Coco at 8:09 AM
3 Comments:
you are a charming girl, all is going to you to come out luck well Juan Carlos
I will kiss you always! Well, as long as I don't have a cold sore ;)
and thank you!
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