Two in One
Two posts in one day...erg. I am struggling and writing about my life seems to make it more manageable.
I found an apartment today. And I move in tomorrow. A lovely, adorable, semi-ghetto single in Long Beach with a Murphy Bed and 1930's style kitchen. Three big windows and lots of closet space. My own place. And I am scared and sad and excited all in one. It's really cute, really. But I am going to be lonely as hell. I miss Casey. And I told him I was looking for places but I haven't told him I'm moving out tommorrow. He begged me today to come back to him, that all he wants is for me to come home and be with him, even if we have to be broken up. To add to my confusion, he won't be able to make rent this month and I had said I was going to be living with him and Rachel...I feel like a jerk leaving them in the lurch. But I have been in the house five days. I told him for weeks I was scared to move in. This should be exciting. I am sad, so very sad. It's a miracle that I can afford the rent and deposit on a moments notice.
I found an apartment today. And I move in tomorrow. A lovely, adorable, semi-ghetto single in Long Beach with a Murphy Bed and 1930's style kitchen. Three big windows and lots of closet space. My own place. And I am scared and sad and excited all in one. It's really cute, really. But I am going to be lonely as hell. I miss Casey. And I told him I was looking for places but I haven't told him I'm moving out tommorrow. He begged me today to come back to him, that all he wants is for me to come home and be with him, even if we have to be broken up. To add to my confusion, he won't be able to make rent this month and I had said I was going to be living with him and Rachel...I feel like a jerk leaving them in the lurch. But I have been in the house five days. I told him for weeks I was scared to move in. This should be exciting. I am sad, so very sad. It's a miracle that I can afford the rent and deposit on a moments notice.
posted by Coco at 6:52 PM
2 Comments:
Let's do something Thurs. night. Get your mind off Casey and I'll get my mind off of everything else...or we'll sit around and bitch about both.
Congrats on the apartment! Your own space...its going to be a good adventure. Don't feel guilty about Casey, he's a big boy and he should be taking care of his own business, not depending on someone else. A little rain must fall in all our lives. Congrats again.
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