A Deeper Ache

I never want to be alone again. To never have a home or a family, be it only one person, lover or a friend. To never be seen again, to never be known, terrifies me more than guns, war, death. Laurence Gonzales says that people who get lost in the wilderness fear not just being lost, but never being seen again but another human. That is the most paralyzing of fears and I know it. I feel lame that loneliness can bring to tears more so than anything else, a deeper ache than a broken heart.