Dream

I need to record my dreams, I have so many vivid ones. I'm lucky to be present in most of my dreaming. Michael, our yoga instructor/studio owner/ coolest guy, told me that I need to start paying attention to my dreams, that they are reflections of something we need to take notice of. So here goes:

Last night I dreamt that I was in a house with my sister and a bunch of people and my fiancee, a handsome early forties man. the lighting was warm and I was so happy. My sister had just gotten married and we were celebrating her marriage and my engagement. Then I was getting married. Our wedding was so wonderful and I felt like I was home. After the wedding my husband and I went back to our house and got into a cozy bed and he proceeded to tell me that he didn't love me, didn't want me anymore and was leaving me. I was devastated. I asked him why? how did this happen? He had no answers to give me, just disgust. he was disgusted by me, by us. The next day I went with a friend to see a movie and I had a feeling of unrest and then I was watching myself sit in the back of a theater with a friend of mine. I was scrunched up in my seat as if I had a stomach ache. And then I watched as two men came in the back of theater looked until they found me, pulled out a machine gun and shot me in the back of the head.

I woke up right then as John was getting up for work. Truth to be told I was pretty down when I went to sleep last night and I wonder sometimes if that is a big contributor to the environment of the dreams I end up having. who Knows. I was glad to wake up though and after he left I fell back to sleep... dreamless, thankfully.