Pumpkin Patch

This afternoon I got to go with my Cousin Tiffany to take her 8 week old baby Tyler to the pumpkin patch for his first halloween photo shoot. I have never really been a part of family stuff like this before, I never really preferred it, but it was my choice and I really enjoyed it, it was nice to be a part of family stuff. And guess what, I might be his nanny in the coming months, just for about three months. He is precious! I have been in this middle ground in my mind about children, I don't know if I'm the mommy type. I don't like to coo over the little ones or talk baby talk or pick out onesies when noones looking. I'm more interested in the new My Chemical Romance album. So I worry about it now and then, or rather just think about the reality of being in the childbearing era of my life. Not that I need to decide now as..you know, I'm not close to popping out any kids soon but, I'm 24 and it begs a little attention from me. So holding him and caring for him today....I could be a mom and love it. I know I could. I know I will be, some day. That doesn't mean I'll give up my black eyeliner though, or my glitter, so don't even think about that!