The Universe
Melanie gave me "The Alchamist" to read, she just finished it. In it the wise King of Salem tells young Santiago "The Universe conspires to help you get what you want" and "just watch the omens". So I thought I might try to start believing that...the universe or God or the world conspires to give you what you want and to watch signs and omens. To an extent.
So I had an audition today for Carnival Cruise lines. but yesterday I started feeling really sick, lymph nodes swollen, hard to swallow, headach..blech. I set my alarm for 7:30am (thats really early for me) and thought, if I feel like shit when I wake up or if I sleep through my alarm I won't beat myself for not going to the audition. I planned to skip it because I was feeling really poorly and drifted in and out of sleep until 5:30am. But I got a text message at 7:15 that made me smille and when I my alarm went off I took it as a sign to get up and go. I was in a good mood and I didn't sleep through the alarm. I was spitting blood from the what I now believe is a sinus infection. But I can rest later.
I got on my bike on time and it wouldn't start. Is that a sign? but I want this. After some loving attention the motorcycle purred like a kitten and I was on my way. I hit massive traffic and, reminding myself about the universe and its desire for me to have what I want I tried to white line for the first time and I made it on time to the audtion. I kept this fuel in the forefront of my mind and made it through the first cut.
Down to the last cut and knew, the universe really did want me to have what I desired. And then I was cut. No job. I drove home with bruises on my legs and blood in my throat.
Perhaps though, what I desire will be just around the corner and this is the journey there.
So I am keeping those sayings in my head for the next month or so and I'll see how far I can take it. Maybe the omens are showing me that my desire to perform is not leading me to Carnival Cruise lines.... but somewhere else :)
Now I'm going home crawl under the covers until I teach belly dancing because I feel like poo.
So I had an audition today for Carnival Cruise lines. but yesterday I started feeling really sick, lymph nodes swollen, hard to swallow, headach..blech. I set my alarm for 7:30am (thats really early for me) and thought, if I feel like shit when I wake up or if I sleep through my alarm I won't beat myself for not going to the audition. I planned to skip it because I was feeling really poorly and drifted in and out of sleep until 5:30am. But I got a text message at 7:15 that made me smille and when I my alarm went off I took it as a sign to get up and go. I was in a good mood and I didn't sleep through the alarm. I was spitting blood from the what I now believe is a sinus infection. But I can rest later.
I got on my bike on time and it wouldn't start. Is that a sign? but I want this. After some loving attention the motorcycle purred like a kitten and I was on my way. I hit massive traffic and, reminding myself about the universe and its desire for me to have what I want I tried to white line for the first time and I made it on time to the audtion. I kept this fuel in the forefront of my mind and made it through the first cut.
Down to the last cut and knew, the universe really did want me to have what I desired. And then I was cut. No job. I drove home with bruises on my legs and blood in my throat.
Perhaps though, what I desire will be just around the corner and this is the journey there.
So I am keeping those sayings in my head for the next month or so and I'll see how far I can take it. Maybe the omens are showing me that my desire to perform is not leading me to Carnival Cruise lines.... but somewhere else :)
Now I'm going home crawl under the covers until I teach belly dancing because I feel like poo.
posted by Coco at 2:20 PM
1 Comments:
I am looking forward to hearing about it... but I hope you feel better!
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