sitch

Here's the sitch in a nutshell. I hate it here. I don't look forward to my job or staying here for six months...I thought about it alot and I get more opportunities to dance and perform at home so I put in my two weeks and I'm leaving in time to audition for Knotts again (where I would get paid 600 a week three shows a day...here 850 a month 4 amatuer shows a week--but that's if I get the job) and rockettes singer dancer audition. I don't know why I just have not liked it here at all. HOWEVER, I feel aweful b/c I'm leaving them shorthanded (and the managers were close to tears when I quit, they really like me) and the guy who told them he'd takeover as choreographer told only me that he is bailing without a word Wed morning..the day before I leave. I am the only one that knows. that means there will be noone to run, rehearse or perform the choreographers parts in the dances. so I have put together this binder with all the necessary info for the choreo. BUT still the next person to step into this job will be in a hell hole for a while. I could stay and work it out. But my baby side wants to GO HOME! argh. I go back and forth between being mad at myself for being a wimp and feeling right about quitting a job I don't like. It finally felt right when I quit and I can't be afraid of making the wrong decision. I just don't want to be a person that always leaves cuz it's hard.
so that's whats going on with me. Pirates said they'd take me back asap and even train me for Gypsy (woo hoo!) and so there you have it. I am so excited to see my friends, my boy, be able to drive...tee hee. I just hate making decisions like that you know? you never want to regret them later and think - I was such a wuss and I could have done great.