Dreams

I know this shouldn't matter to me
as it doesn't and never mattered to you
but permeated, seperated
and brought me to my knees
and made it all true

life and death and the tempo of breath
and everything affected
and I had nothing left

i rebuilt
block by block
a life to set me free

my heartbroken, shattered
I'm through
but yet I pressed on
pretend that I knew

and now relief in my waking
relief in my day
freedom from making it stand in my way

and yet what I think is the end
your grip slipping away
you visit me in my dreams
tied to a memory too painful to bear

why would the torment
deep in my brain
wait till your memory's sobering
fading from view

then haunt me in rest
reinvoke so much pain
and make life such a test

I guess this fight isn't over
as much as I tried
I have to continue
you haven't complied

With breath in my lungs
and strength in my heart
I'll wrestle your demons
and force their depart

the same with your ghosts
that speak in my dreams
they won't terrify
and bring me to screams

I'm done! I'm done!
and I've said it before
but since there's something still left in the background
I'll say it some more

till every last remnant is gasping in death
and then maybe someday
I'll sleep like the damned
who looked for a savior and found their true lamb...