Home

I am home, truly where my heart is. I got home on Thursday night and got to have dinner with Melanie and Ryan before going home to my boyfriend. He had to work so after he was done working we got our favorite...boba and headed to bed. Ahhh. Friday morning I auditioned at Knotts Berry Farm for the summer show while Casey worked at Knotts (convenient since we're still sharing my car). Then to the beach with friends Joe and Cindy. Saturday I found out I made the Knotts show...5 days a week, 3 shows a day! I also was told that on Tuesday I start training to be the Gypsy at Pirates...the aerialist!! We start with this thing called the moonwalk. The aerialist pops out of a box and is helped onto a trapeze after a few swings she climbs the ropes to a track of loops on the ceiling. She hooks her feet in, hangs upside down and "walks" from loop to loop! Next week we learn silks and the cradle act. I'm so excited but so nervous at the same time. I am being trained at the same time as two aerialists. Saturday night I got to hang out with my good friends..dinner and mini golf! Sunday was the gym and a friends birthday. I have been in such transition, feeling wierd, happy, worry about money that I don't have but owe, ambitious...Casey and I have gone back and forth between excitement and irritation with each other-we've been kissing and fighting. Finally, today I felt normal. Casey and I felt a bit more normal. I got a last minute job with the event company for Tuesday and Wednesday and a Vegas job for the end of May. I will be Princess at Pirates two shows on Sunday and then next week on Tuesday and Friday. Knotts starts June 11. ahhhh, things tend to work themselves out. I am so happy to be here, to be working and with my friends and loved ones. Cindy and I will be looking for apartments (I'm hoping to be able to pay for one in the near future...I hate living in between things all the time).

Ah, it's a relief to be back and feel like I'm living my life again.