The Single Life
I broke up with Casey 2 1/2 weeks ago.
I went out on a wonderful first date with Shane on Sunday. He took me ice skating and out to dinner and said his only goal was to get a second date. Granted.
Friday I met Danielle's friend Steven when we all went out after a show. He asked me out. So Thursday I am going ice skating (I didn't know I was going with Shane...it was a suprise) and to lunch with Steven.
I did pick up Casey from the airport and we spent the afternoon yesterday at lunch and talking. Just, I think healthy post break up rehashing crying and normal convo. I really want us to be able to just be friends and people who care about each other in the long run.
Last night Shane asked me what I did that day and to make a long story short said it sounded like I wasn't over Casey yet and did I want to put us on hold for a while because he was looking for me to be his girlfriend now. I said yes. put us on hold, we're friends no phone calls no dates. Then he called me later that night to convince me that you get over someone else by having someone to be with. He would be a great boyfriend to me and he wants me to think about it.
The truth is, he could be fricken Prince Charming and I wouldn't commit right now because I'M NOT READY TO. He asked if I had any doubt that I might go back to Casey and I said no, none whatsoever...its just processing and really its just that I want to know people better before I jump in with both feet this time. I'm still reeling and not wanting to be a wife. I'm wanting to be single girl with her own apartment and space to cry on the bed or run around naked if I want. But I feel bad, because he would be devoted and wonderful to me, and take care of me, and he's beautiful. But, bad timing is bad timing...right? and I'm not sure I want him specifically. He's young and quite frankly, he's been really pushy. So, I had a great first date and now I'm going with the flow, I'm not ready to be a girlfriend but I am ready to go out with Steven and decipher my feelings for Shane as the days go on.
fricken boys :)
ps. I also had to turn down a friend who is apparently in love with me, dodge two coworkers I'm not interested in and then I got a message yesterday asking me if I just wanted to have sex. I couldn't get a date to save my llife in college! Seriously, is this a test?
I went out on a wonderful first date with Shane on Sunday. He took me ice skating and out to dinner and said his only goal was to get a second date. Granted.
Friday I met Danielle's friend Steven when we all went out after a show. He asked me out. So Thursday I am going ice skating (I didn't know I was going with Shane...it was a suprise) and to lunch with Steven.
I did pick up Casey from the airport and we spent the afternoon yesterday at lunch and talking. Just, I think healthy post break up rehashing crying and normal convo. I really want us to be able to just be friends and people who care about each other in the long run.
Last night Shane asked me what I did that day and to make a long story short said it sounded like I wasn't over Casey yet and did I want to put us on hold for a while because he was looking for me to be his girlfriend now. I said yes. put us on hold, we're friends no phone calls no dates. Then he called me later that night to convince me that you get over someone else by having someone to be with. He would be a great boyfriend to me and he wants me to think about it.
The truth is, he could be fricken Prince Charming and I wouldn't commit right now because I'M NOT READY TO. He asked if I had any doubt that I might go back to Casey and I said no, none whatsoever...its just processing and really its just that I want to know people better before I jump in with both feet this time. I'm still reeling and not wanting to be a wife. I'm wanting to be single girl with her own apartment and space to cry on the bed or run around naked if I want. But I feel bad, because he would be devoted and wonderful to me, and take care of me, and he's beautiful. But, bad timing is bad timing...right? and I'm not sure I want him specifically. He's young and quite frankly, he's been really pushy. So, I had a great first date and now I'm going with the flow, I'm not ready to be a girlfriend but I am ready to go out with Steven and decipher my feelings for Shane as the days go on.
fricken boys :)
ps. I also had to turn down a friend who is apparently in love with me, dodge two coworkers I'm not interested in and then I got a message yesterday asking me if I just wanted to have sex. I couldn't get a date to save my llife in college! Seriously, is this a test?
posted by Coco at 9:39 AM
4 Comments:
Wow, talk about popular. Take your time, it is your life and you do not owe anyone anything. Take care.
Hi Crista! Thanks for stopping by my blog! I realized I posted a reply for you on mine, so here it is just in case!! YOU are beautiful and SUPER talented!
AND...if possible, can you please email me your new address? I posted that on my blog/comment!!
yeah "boys" key word.. lol
Cheers.
Rice.
ok thought I would email you a bit more but I'll just leave it here..
I hear all to well what your saying about the whole dating thing. As you seen I been out of a "relationship" for a year now and have given the whole dating/relationship thing a lot of thought and field work.
first off "the Rebound", in what ever form you take it is a quasi relationship after a brake up that will help you to realize that there is nothing wrong with you. So that step was kind of important.
I also found in my first three months of "dating" that I was not ready for a "relationship" because I was not myself yet. So I took about 4 months and made me the male version of the kind of girl I wanted to meet. After that dating became a lot more fun.
then came the dating Vs Relationship. I joke but don't joke that my next long term relationship will be with a black lab puppy next year. "dating" became a lot more fun when I stopped weighing everyone up to see if they would fit in my life for the long term so I just took it one date at a time. Slowly, respectfully and honestly so then there was no need to turn down a date because I happened to go out on a date with someone else the week before... All that "I'm dating someone" never made sence to me when you would ask to go out for a coffee...
food for thought.
Rice.
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