Dreams II
I just woke up so I wanted to record them asap.
I was dreaming a long dream I don't remember all of it but Kirby had a party at her house that I showed up at (with my mother) but then instead of attending I just went back to a guest lodge with my mother and went to sleep. the next day I went to find Kirby to help her clean up and we walked around her property just chatting and picking things up here and there. the house was on acres and acres of land. We talked with a few of the friends at the party who had spent the night and then walked outsdide with a group of people. It was then dark and night time. I walked toward a fence and all of a sudden the sky was spinning and all the constellations that we recognize in astrology were glowing and spinning. I tried to spot cancer but leo caught my eye first. When I finally found cancer it was going from pink to bright orange and it seemed that leo was attacking it. we all marveled at the sight and then Andrew pulled up in an itty bitty convertable. Two girls hopped in the back and then asked me to take front with Andrew. I knew I'd be squished into his legs (and that he might just like that), but they kept coaxing so a smushed myself in and we took off. Everything was fine and I was feeling better. Andrew said something and looked towards me and we were all chatting away and when I looked forward we were headed straight for a pole that was nearly invisible because it was painted black and it was in the middle of the road. Andrew looked ahead and slammed on the breaks but it was too late we hit the pole, the airbags went off and the car flipped on its. side. I landed on Andrew who was unconcious and possibly dead. One of the girls behind me started to scream in pain and fear and I yelled at her to calm down. I knew we would die if we didn't stay calm. Then I woke up.
END OF DREAM
I am feeling so much better than yesterday. Sometimes I get this unbearable sadness and heavyness and I fight it and really what I need to do is cry. Mel and I talked about how that's how we relax. I fight it because it seems wrong to need to cry and feel sad...er meloncholy. Just not happy. But once I let it go and cry (which I did at the gym locker-room once it got to headache point) I feel good again. I need that release.
Today I have an audition of Cirque De La Mer of Seaworld. Wish me luck! I'm getting myself pumped up with a brisk a walk and a little Bjork. Tomorrow I have an interview I'm pretty excited about - Dance teacher for Jazz/Lyrical and some baby tap and ballet AND Musical Theater assist to vocal director for thier 6-11 and 11-14 musical theater classes which do a musical production at the end of the year. !!! I can't wait! If I could do that and then cut back a day or two at Pirates I could make a little more money, branch out towards my long term goals AND rest and cross train my shoulder a bit. We'll see. Oh plus the studio is in Manhattan Beach... right around the corner :)
John got our tickets to Argentina yesterday. That's right, I'm going to ARGENTINA!!! John's brother is moving there with his wife who is from Chile. So John's renting a condo for a month and he asked me to come for as long as I can/want. I' m going to go for a week. I get a week of vacay starting in May anyway. So I'm pretty stoked!!
oh more news to come.... gotta go for that jog/walk! Cross your fingers today, I'm thinking happy thoughts. Jason told me yesterday "you don't have to know WHAT you have you just know you have something that people will want and then they will find what they want in you". Thanks Jason. It really gave me good perspective!
I was dreaming a long dream I don't remember all of it but Kirby had a party at her house that I showed up at (with my mother) but then instead of attending I just went back to a guest lodge with my mother and went to sleep. the next day I went to find Kirby to help her clean up and we walked around her property just chatting and picking things up here and there. the house was on acres and acres of land. We talked with a few of the friends at the party who had spent the night and then walked outsdide with a group of people. It was then dark and night time. I walked toward a fence and all of a sudden the sky was spinning and all the constellations that we recognize in astrology were glowing and spinning. I tried to spot cancer but leo caught my eye first. When I finally found cancer it was going from pink to bright orange and it seemed that leo was attacking it. we all marveled at the sight and then Andrew pulled up in an itty bitty convertable. Two girls hopped in the back and then asked me to take front with Andrew. I knew I'd be squished into his legs (and that he might just like that), but they kept coaxing so a smushed myself in and we took off. Everything was fine and I was feeling better. Andrew said something and looked towards me and we were all chatting away and when I looked forward we were headed straight for a pole that was nearly invisible because it was painted black and it was in the middle of the road. Andrew looked ahead and slammed on the breaks but it was too late we hit the pole, the airbags went off and the car flipped on its. side. I landed on Andrew who was unconcious and possibly dead. One of the girls behind me started to scream in pain and fear and I yelled at her to calm down. I knew we would die if we didn't stay calm. Then I woke up.
END OF DREAM
I am feeling so much better than yesterday. Sometimes I get this unbearable sadness and heavyness and I fight it and really what I need to do is cry. Mel and I talked about how that's how we relax. I fight it because it seems wrong to need to cry and feel sad...er meloncholy. Just not happy. But once I let it go and cry (which I did at the gym locker-room once it got to headache point) I feel good again. I need that release.
Today I have an audition of Cirque De La Mer of Seaworld. Wish me luck! I'm getting myself pumped up with a brisk a walk and a little Bjork. Tomorrow I have an interview I'm pretty excited about - Dance teacher for Jazz/Lyrical and some baby tap and ballet AND Musical Theater assist to vocal director for thier 6-11 and 11-14 musical theater classes which do a musical production at the end of the year. !!! I can't wait! If I could do that and then cut back a day or two at Pirates I could make a little more money, branch out towards my long term goals AND rest and cross train my shoulder a bit. We'll see. Oh plus the studio is in Manhattan Beach... right around the corner :)
John got our tickets to Argentina yesterday. That's right, I'm going to ARGENTINA!!! John's brother is moving there with his wife who is from Chile. So John's renting a condo for a month and he asked me to come for as long as I can/want. I' m going to go for a week. I get a week of vacay starting in May anyway. So I'm pretty stoked!!
oh more news to come.... gotta go for that jog/walk! Cross your fingers today, I'm thinking happy thoughts. Jason told me yesterday "you don't have to know WHAT you have you just know you have something that people will want and then they will find what they want in you". Thanks Jason. It really gave me good perspective!
posted by Coco at 7:31 AM
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Good luck!!!!!
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