Sheepish Confession
Well, I have shied away from my love life for a while (to give you all a breather, poor souls!) But at Maia's request, I have to blog about D.
So, after I broke up with Casey, we all know I slept with D and then started dating Shane. D was supposed to be a rebound, a trial to see if I could do the whole casual sex thing. No, was the answer. Especially if you are crushing on your supposed casual. Especially if you grew up saving it for marriage and just blew it on an asshole who cheated on you. The next one out of the chute was not without tears. But whatever once didn't hurt me and we are friends and we work together and it was fine.
Fast forward, post Shane, D and I are flirty as usual and I get the proposition. I laugh it off for a week or two and then we sleep together. More confusion after...I like him, I see good in him, I can't tell if he's into me, everyone thinks he has feelings for me, asks if we are together. I figure it was just once (again) so I shouldn't read into it. But there was the hour of talking after, the text messages a few days later, the bonding everyday things that made me think...maybe? Then not a week later we hang out, he holds my hand, we sleep together again and after there is three HOURS of conversation. About? Our pasts, futures, goals, hobbies...now I am confused, again. But then nothing for a few days after, so over it?
Until tonight. and you're going to laugh at me but he committed the unpardonable crime and in so doing let me off the hook. I cannot 1) sleep with him ever again 2) consider dating him. and here is why...
He asked me for gas money.
Case closed.
You can't sleep with a man who asks you for gas money, or money at all, especially BEFORE you're in a relationship of any kind. I feel a little bad about this. I gave it to him, we are friends and I could help out, of course I will. But what I can't tell him is that you CAN'T SLEEP WITH A MAN WHO ASKS YOU FOR MONEY.
I know, I know what you're thinking. I stayed with men after cheating, lying, apathy, but I was in relationships with them already and they all ended. But my definite switch is this, asking a woman for money. Ask your guy friends, ask your gal pals (that you haven't slept with and only if you will die if you don't), ask your parents, hitchhike, write a bad check, ask a stranger but not, I repeat, NOT a woman you slept with in the last five days.
What I can be is his friend. I do like him, I do care about him, I do want to help. But now I have to do it strickly as a friend and perhaps this is the best thing to have happened because obviously, he does not have at least one crucial thing for me - respect as a woman. arg.
Oh well
So, after I broke up with Casey, we all know I slept with D and then started dating Shane. D was supposed to be a rebound, a trial to see if I could do the whole casual sex thing. No, was the answer. Especially if you are crushing on your supposed casual. Especially if you grew up saving it for marriage and just blew it on an asshole who cheated on you. The next one out of the chute was not without tears. But whatever once didn't hurt me and we are friends and we work together and it was fine.
Fast forward, post Shane, D and I are flirty as usual and I get the proposition. I laugh it off for a week or two and then we sleep together. More confusion after...I like him, I see good in him, I can't tell if he's into me, everyone thinks he has feelings for me, asks if we are together. I figure it was just once (again) so I shouldn't read into it. But there was the hour of talking after, the text messages a few days later, the bonding everyday things that made me think...maybe? Then not a week later we hang out, he holds my hand, we sleep together again and after there is three HOURS of conversation. About? Our pasts, futures, goals, hobbies...now I am confused, again. But then nothing for a few days after, so over it?
Until tonight. and you're going to laugh at me but he committed the unpardonable crime and in so doing let me off the hook. I cannot 1) sleep with him ever again 2) consider dating him. and here is why...
He asked me for gas money.
Case closed.
You can't sleep with a man who asks you for gas money, or money at all, especially BEFORE you're in a relationship of any kind. I feel a little bad about this. I gave it to him, we are friends and I could help out, of course I will. But what I can't tell him is that you CAN'T SLEEP WITH A MAN WHO ASKS YOU FOR MONEY.
I know, I know what you're thinking. I stayed with men after cheating, lying, apathy, but I was in relationships with them already and they all ended. But my definite switch is this, asking a woman for money. Ask your guy friends, ask your gal pals (that you haven't slept with and only if you will die if you don't), ask your parents, hitchhike, write a bad check, ask a stranger but not, I repeat, NOT a woman you slept with in the last five days.
What I can be is his friend. I do like him, I do care about him, I do want to help. But now I have to do it strickly as a friend and perhaps this is the best thing to have happened because obviously, he does not have at least one crucial thing for me - respect as a woman. arg.
Oh well
posted by Coco at 10:17 PM
1 Comments:
Gas money- ha! We had a new guy at work (lasted about a month, for good reason) and he asked me to borrow gas money. He was living in a place for free about an hour and half commute everyday...free living but still couldn't afford gas? And I thought "why would you ask the only single mother in this office supporting two kids(!) to borrow money? Do I look like a bank? What kind of self-respecting 30something year old male would do that??!!"
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